YOU

to forget you
but not to leave you
to be near you
but not to be with you
to care for you
but not to love you

Keep Off the Grass

i'm fucked up. shit, i'm so damn honest.
anyway..
MY DAY --- 16JULY2006
it went well..surprisingly. woke up, talked to the wall, the ceiling, and my pillows. a friend called, was thinking about calling him and then poof! he's on the phone. great. so we talked, chit chat and then someone was on the other line. she told me to call her after i talk to the other one. so i hung up after and called the other person. and we talked. and then it's time for me to eat lunch. after lunch, dressed up, went out. went to timog. ate, sang, ate, then home again. the day out was cool. i went out. heh.

17JULY2006
12:00mn
i so hate the 'start' of my day. text, text, text. headache. i'm out of words. as i said, i am fucked up.

blood

i bleed just to know i'm alive.
pain.
it makes me feel life. but it makes me wish for death.
my mind is not functioning anymore. it aches.
my heart is dying. it is in pain.

buhay

ayoko na.
ayoko na.
ayoko na.

tapusin na ang lahat
wag kang magugulat
pag nalaman mong
wala na ko sa mundo.