Starlight

I can see clearly now, it's been clear ever since, i just wasn't accepting it.

I like her. I think maybe i love her. But she only sees me as a friend, and that's not bad isn't it? At least she sees me.

I don't know why I'm so drawn to her, what is it with her that got me this hooked? Is this love?
The first time i really looked into her eyes, i got lost. The world stopped. I couldn't hear what she was saying but i felt something. I knew from that moment that there was something. I knew from that moment that i wanted to take care of her, give her everything she wants, whatever she needs. I didn't know what to do. It was the very first time i felt that way. That memory will forever be etched in my brain.

I wanted to spend every second of my life with her. I wanted to get to know her better. I wanted to give her everything. I wanted her to feel the same way. But she doesn't, she doesn't feel the same way.

All i know now is I want her to have peace of mind. I want her to be happy. Even if I'm not the reason she's happy. Even if I don't give her the peace of mind she needs.

She deserves the world. She deserves everything she wants. She has flaws, yes, but with all she's been through, she deserves to be loved.

Love. She deserves the kind of love that i think i can give but i know she doesn't want it from me. She wants it from somebody else.

I am crumbling. My world is falling apart. This is all too painful. But i have to endure everything because all i want is for her to be happy.

I will be here for her. I will be in the background, waiting for her to call me when she needs someone to talk to. When she needs to rant about anything, i will be here to listen. I will be here for her, loving her in silence.